Aq penat tau penat... Aq asyik jd mangsa je.... yg aq x blh tahan, mangsa kes kecurian... lain kali klu x ada duit tu, buat cara x ada duit.. hg klu kedarah duit sgt, pi curi kat bank tu, berjuta duit dlm tu... hg tau x hg curi harta kls.. hg bdh ke apa.. klu satu kls tu x halalkan duit yg hg curi, aq x tau la hg nk minx maaf cmna... aq mmg stress nk ganti blk... apa yg aq nk, aq x blh dpt sbb nk ganti blk duit kls... ada lg satu kes curi tp nasib aq dpt blk... ni yg aq x blh tahan ni, org yg bdh x ada duit, buat mcm cap duit je... aq terpaksa ganti blk duit tu.. klu sikit x pe, ni jumlah yg besar.... hg tau x, besar nnt, aq nk sambung belajar... aq tgh kumpul duit utk nnt... ni hg punya psl aq kena ganti... aq la, skt ht gila... aq mungkin maafkan hg, tp yg lg 35 org tu akan maafkan hg ka??? kami tau sapa yg curi, tp kami cuma x ada bukti.. kami tau sbb benda ni keluar dr mulut hg sendiri...
LAIN KALI KLU X ADA DUIT, BUAT CARA X ADA DUIT~!!! jgn nk ikut sgt nafsu... semua yg hg nk, msti dpt.. sbb hg, aq x blh dpt apa yg aq nk... aq pun blh skt ht la wei~!!!!!!!!!!!
Tuesday 6 August 2013
When the blame is on me
It hurts so much when someone u can't hate deceives u... Well me, I've been there.. It hurts so much but no one ever sees... In fact, people thought I was the one deceiving... Being accused for deceiving when I'm actually the victim... I bare the pain... I tried to be strong but when everyone turns their back on me, where can I find the strength?? Why do we even have emotions when it just hurts us... It wasn't my choice to break up with him... I did it for my own good... and for his... I was so afraid of him... He hurt me but no one ever know... Everyone blamed me for causing him to turn this way... I was protecting myself... My dignity was at stake... I tried clearing my name but I failed... Everyone seems to just believes his purity... I don't blame them for accusing me.. I blame myself for being blind... If I hadn't made that choice that day, I wouldn't have to suffer like this... Frankly, I couldn't hate him.. No matter how much I try, I just couldn't... But to be true, his personality scares me... I fear him.... He just have this kind of aura that makes me couldn't hate him... I just wish and hope that everyone would stop putting that blame on me... If I didn't chose this way, I could lose my dignity... I really wish people would u know, would just listen... Sometimes u think u know the truth but u don't...
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