Tuesday 25 March 2014
The me in the world of gaming
Sunday 16 March 2014
My blog <3
Haa.. so dusty... well, time to listen to my problems, blog....
So many problem and yet no one listen to me... yes i know, when u need me, i'll always be there... i can smile and show you the rainbow... but when i need u guys, where did u go? Why did u shut me out alone in the storm?
I know, in front of u, i am feelingless... its because i don't want ny feelings to destoy people's happiness... but u know, its silently killing me inside... haven't u heard? Silence is the best answer and the best killer...
I always fantasize that I'm in a world where people value your existence... yes i know, no pain, no gain... but this is alot of pain yet i gain nothing...
They say I'm crazy cause i always think of something I'm not... well, u guys cause this...
I just wanna take a day off... go to a world where i can just let everything go... do what i wanna do, be what i wanna be... there's no rules... no limits.. its just me and myself...
Tears roll down every night and yet no one notice... wake up the next day, everything is still the same...
On mistake and forever u will be the cause of everything... see, reality is so cruel... its so self-centered...
Yes, u can give me a mountain of gold.. all the finest jeweleries but what i value most is what money can never buy...
U can say that I'm ridiculous that i look up on Elsa(Frozen)... but i admire her.. the way she just let everything go... and don't give a dang about the world... that's what i wanna do... just let it go... ignore the world and have it my own way...
When I'm not there for u anymore, it's not because I'm abandoning you... it's because i don't stay with people who do value what i sacrifice...
U don't have eyes that monitors me 24/7 therefore u cannot make ur own conclusion...
I actually feel like giving up on this world...
When I'm gone, don't find me anymore... I'm not turning back...
If you don't treat me well now, don't expect me to treat u well when i can stand on my own feet... I'm mature enough... i study human's behavior therefore i know what action to take...
I want my bear~!!!! :'(
Don't underestimate what I'm capable of...