Sunday 27 September 2015
Flaws
Wednesday 23 September 2015
Depression
anxious,
empty,
hopeless,
helpless,
worthless,
guilty,
irritable,
ashamed,
or
restless.
They may lose interest in activities that were once pleasurable,
loss of appetite or overeating
or
etc.
Sounds sad doesn't it?
But there are a lot of people going through this right now.
One maybe your best friend who is wearing a mask.
Maybe even yourself.
How about me?
Well,
I'm going through this too.
Hanging out used to be fun.
But yesterday when I went out with my sister,
I don't feel fun at all.
I just wanted to go home.
So many problems and relationship issues,
I can't handle this.
It's pressuring me so much.
I used to be a big eater.
Food is life.
Food brings joy.
But now,
food is nothing but a dead animal or plant on my plate.
I don't feel like eating anymore.
Why must it be me who must endure all this?
Why can't it be anybody else?
Why?
Why is it always
ME?
Exam problems,
School data problems,
Grade problems,
Relationship issues.
I don't deserve this.
What did I ever do wrong to be tortured mentally like this?
Even playing the piano
doesn't bring me joy anymore.
It's just an instrument
with strings
pedals
and
black and white keys.
I feel like leaving everyone.
Move on to a new place.
Begin a new life,
Forget my past.
I don't want to remember anything.
I don't want to remember anyone.
I used to care so much when people leave my life.
But now, I'm holding the door open and chasing people away.
I used to sacrifice so much just to put a smile on someone's face
But now, I'm wrecking other people's happiness.
If I was paid every time I cry when someone hurt me and never fight back,
I'd be a millionaire.
I really just wanna forget everything.
I don't deserve this pain.
I didn't do anything to deserve a pain like this.
I do smile in front of you.
But I was awarded the best liar and actress by my best friend.
Appreciate the people that you have.
Be there for them when they need you the most.
Before they turn like me.
Thursday 17 September 2015
Problems
:) Smile.
XD Also, a big shout out to the people that commented on my post
and gave me good advice.
<3 <3 I love you guys~~!!
Tuesday 15 September 2015
"Friend"
Be happy always everyone.
And to all Malaysians,
:) Have fun celebrating Malaysia Day tomorrow.
Wednesday 9 September 2015
It's just a fake smile
It's just a fake smile.
Everyone can put a mask on.
I'm laughing now.
But do you know that I was always broken to begin with?
I was never ok.
I was always hurt.
I was always
Depress
:) Putting a smile other's face gave me a little happiness
I really just wanna cry.
Show the world, that I'm broken enough.
Please
Stop hurting me.
I'm really depressed to the point
I can't even describe them in words.
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