Why must u make my life so hard?

i really don't know what to do anymore when i'm being so nice, ppl step on me but when i'm being slightly bad, the whole world judge me as if i killed some1
if this is what life really mean, i don't want it then i never wished to be born... i was born for a reason and it's not for u to insult me whenever u want
life is just abt eating, sleeping, and live the next day why must u make my life so hard? what have i ever done to u?  if u never started to insult me, i would never turn so cold to u
I PLAY GAMES TO ESCAPE MY PROBLEMS IN THE REAL WORLD stop making problems for me in game u know, I NEVER EVEN WISH TO MEET U when u appeared, we talked so well tgt
u were so nice to me.. but then, bcus of ur childish attitude gap grew between us and everyday, it just keep growing.. that gap never grew smaller
u know i tried i tried to hold my anger i tried to be nice with u i tried....
but then u insulted me when it wasn't even ur right.. i never talked bad abt u yes true, for once i was so angry, i could just murder u
but at least, AT LEAST i tried to be nice to u i dun understand u what have i ever done wrong to u?
if it was abt the boyfie thing tbh, i call everyone "baka" not just ur boyfie and that time, he wasn't even urs to start with
and that time i never knew anything.. i didn't know u would be so jealous i'm sorry ok.. i'm so sorry... i even ask ur boyfie to tell u that i'm sorry..
i did my part.. i took distance from ur boyfie and then after that, u insulted me TELL ME, WHERE HAVE I GONE WRONG?
it maybe just a game but ur words, they really pierced my heart i was really2 wounded.. and that night, i cried as if some1 i love died..
if u want a direct apology, i can apologise to u directly but 1st, i demand u take back ur insults.. stop hurting me already i'm not something that u can just say whatever u want
i treasure every friend i have i wish u knew...
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